When I was here before, couldn't look you in the eye

So anyone who has met me knows where this is going

I can’t do it

I know it’s a major flaw and the older I get the more I realise the value people place on eye contact.

A lack of it:

it’s untrustworthy
it makes people uncomfortable
you appear to be disinterested in the person you are talking to
you are rude
you are self obsessed
you are bored

I’m sure you could add a few of your own.

From the point of view (arf!) of someone who can’t hold eye contact for more than a couple of seconds with friends or even family I have known for years it’s hard to pin down why.

Of course it’s a lack of self confidence, difficulty with being the centre of anyone’s attention but it’s not like I am trying to hide something, that I feel uncomfortable being with you.

Is it a habit that I have got into that like anything needs dedication and practice to overcome?

Should I ask you all to try and get me to maintain eye contact with you more when we meet?

Does anyone have any tips on overcoming this?

Should I just grow the fuck up?

Or as always am I overthinking things and should just use my shy moody and aloof image to my advantage?

If it has ever annoyed, upset or made you mad then I am truly sorry but does it bother you as much as it bothers me?